My Diary
16th November 2008
Knowing, as I do, how weird and wonderful My world appears to many of you out there... I thought that I would share a bit of it with you.
I am still hearing from many people that their dream is to come and serve Me but they are just too SCARED! No need to be nervous - I am as sweet as a pussycat :)
I received the following email from a new slave that I sessioned with recently. His session MAY sound extreme to you.. but remember I always use My skilled judgement to decide how much you can take.
Your boundaries will certainly be pushed by Me.. maybe further than you imagined or further than other Mistress' took you but never further than you can cope with either physically or mentally.
I do have such fun humiliating and abusing My big slut slaves but as a Woman that adores spending (other people's) money I am particularly partial to MONEY SLAVES. For some reason, it just feels so much easier to blow someone else's money on frivolous things rather than My own? Here's another email that I received recently.. it goes on a bit but you'll get the point. As for slave kevin and all the other money pigs out there.... it's time to send Me some!
Hello again Mistress Prima
For me being a slave is ive just realised in the last day or so, sacrificing myself for the benefit of the Mistress. to me that means going without things so that Her interests always come first. it means sacrificing financially if such is demanded and going hungry for periods if necessary to ensure that Her needs are met in that department if one is on a low income. in that respect slavery is hard, but it was never designed to be easy, if it was easy all males would do it and it would not be slavery , it would be a frivolous form of play slavery.
Should a Mistress expect anything less of her slave than he define himself and show real deference and honour to his boss by sacrificing on a daily basis for Her benefit. After all who is Owner , and who is owned. In these relationships the needs of the Owner must always come first, the needs of the owned come a distant second, unless there are very important reasons like matter s of health where the slave's needs would obviously come first if he was in any danger health wise. In closing being a slave is not about looking after your own needs and living a lavish existence, it is about looking after the Owner's needs so that She gains Her entitlements and has her needs looked after. If this means the slave must live humbly and go without financially then so be it. Slaves are supposed to be humble and obedient.
As i am one of those that is my function to make sure that those above me have a better quality of life than myself. in practice that means i must go without as You are more deserving and already by the very fact you are Female and a Mistress, You have an entitlement to a percentage of my income. As a slave i must live humbly and even in poverty if necessary to ensure You get Your Money and what is Legally Yours. Because from this day forward the word of the Superior Female, and You are an example, Mistress Prima, is now the absolute Law i must obey. just as i would never break a traffic light , as a slave i would never dream of disobeying your orders even, as it will, cause me to sacrifice and go without so that Your Entitlements are fulfilled without question or complaint
yours in obedience
kevin
Recently I had an all-day session with slave j - a french man. What a sweety - he came over from France just for his session with Me. He gave Me a lovely bottle of wine and when I heard that he was a chef.. he of course was instructed to cook us both lunch. It isn't every day that I have My very own french chef to cook lunch.. and he of course had to work naked while I watched! I was amused by his accent as he said "I am sufferring Mistress".. it sounded so cute that I made him repeat it many times. Of course, he was actually sufferring a lot of the time.. the poor soul had watersports fantasies but had never actually drunk.. well I do always push the boundaries lol Here's his email after his session.. complete with some strange english.. but.. much better than My french.
Slave j looked quite dazed by the time I had finished with him.. and amazed that I sent him home without an orgasm, covered in My pee and wearing My pee soaked glossy Wolford tights under his trousers. After a full day with me - of course I could have allowed him to shower.. but instead I laughed that he would be self-conscious all the way back to his hotel - wondering whether he smelt. He'd seen other Mistresses in the past .. but obviously.. nothing like that had ever happened to him before and he can't wait to come back for more! Hmm I look forward to naked lunch.
For all My lovely Adult Baby/Diaper Lovers .. I recently made some AB films and these are available at My Clips Store and very soon on My Members Area. The Diary of adult baby Jessica's recent extended stay with Me will soon be posted on My Adult Baby Site.
Here's a still from one of the films:
Being a Dominatrix as well as a Nanny, and very experienced in both, means that I can do sessions combining elements of both if you wish. Only a couple of Ladies, including Myself, in the UK are able or willing to do this. As an actress at heart I love all forms of role play and obviously as an ex Head Mistress/Teacher I play that role very convincingly!
until next time
Mistress Prima XX
12th November
Things have been hectic here. It's taken ages trying to catch up with all My emails, Members Area updates, films that needed editing and so many other things. Now we are fully into cold, grey and wet days I start wishing again that I was in some nice sunny place. Luckily My home is lovely and warm and I also have one of those lamps to prevent SAD (seasonal affective disorder). I am sure that the lamp works as if I have it on at night.. it tricks My body into thinking it is daytime and I can happily work right through to 6am. Not that I intended that to happen lol.
So many people seem to be really down and depressed at the moment and I almost feel guilty that I feel really great. Maybe the happiest that I have ever been in My life. I have sufferred with depression in the past and at the time I felt that I had no control over My emotions or how I felt. I have studied mind control and self-development methods from all the great thinkers and motivators with a passion for the last few years and I have to credit that for the fantastic way I feel. Now, even if something doesn't go well or I think of a sad thought.. I just choose to feel good and I do. It was Tony Robbins' Personal Power and Get the Edge programme on CD that helped Me to give up smoking.. 16 weeks this Friday incidentally. If anyone would like them (13 disks) - make Me an offer.
I know that some of the people that come to see Me sometimes feel depressed about their fetishes and wish that they could suppress them and be 'normal'... if that exists? I could NEVER condone any fetish or behaviour that hurt children or animals.. just don't go there. However, the things that I get up to with My slaves are all with consent and are safe adult play. I really don't see anything wrong with letting off a bit of steam and disappearing into a fantasy world for an hour or two. I do. Sometimes I can see a real physical difference in someone before and after a session with Me. Some people turn up looking so stressed (I am referring to regulars here not nervous novices) that I imagine that they are well on their way to a heart attack.. and then when they leave.. they look calm, relaxed and peaceful .. how they should be. Of course.. we all know that look of serenity partly comes form the intense orgasm they just had lol.
I have had a few film clip requests recently and will do My best to make them.. if I haven't made them within six weeks - please email Me again. Here's one of them:
Dear Mistress Prima
I'm delighted there is new content in your clips4sale store. I'll have to be careful otherwise this letter will turn into pure fanmail! You are revered in the ballbusting community. In one particular clip when you asked your slave if he needed a cuddle, after the testicle abuse he'd received, I was in love.
Would you consider this scenario? It would be fully on your terms as no third party is required.
Please face the camera sitting in your chair, and tell us how superior you are because you have no weakness. You'll never know how it feels to be kicked in the balls. Spend a minute or so telling us how much it would hurt if you kicked us there. Imitate the reactions of a man who had just been kicked extremely hard/had his balls crushed in a vice. Then explain to us with your hand what you would do to a pair of testicles to hurt them and in detail what would happen if you squeezed too hard!
Thank you in advance! - Steve
Hmmm - I have no weakness - I like that thought. I was always very strong anyway but I guess with all the thought and mind control techniques I now know.. I am beyond many of the things that bother the majority of the population. Particularly as all weakness (and strength) is in the mind.
Slave pansy - that fitted My beautiful new kitchen.. what a sweetheart.. has also made Me a new cage. It is 6 feet long and 3 feet wide... just like the one I had years ago.. but better. It is made from the strongest steel you can buy.. very heavy.. and you will NEVER escape from it. It also has a very comfortable padded top so I may sleep on top while you are locked inside all night? Overnight sessions are available on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays.. with notice and deposit. I will post a piccy of My new cage soon.
bye for now
Mistress Prima XX
23rd October
I am very pleased to say that My kitchen is now completed. Adult baby slave pansy has now gone home and everywhere is clean and back to normal. I did have fun torturing and teasing pansy every day. I promised him at the beginning of his stay that I would become stricter every day and believe Me - I did! He was forced to wear the most uncomfortable or humiliating outfits at all times - while he was working and when he was asleep.
Here's two pics of him working away and two pics of the finished kitchen - which I am very pleased with:
As pansy's reward for working so hard I will be taking him to the Erotica exhibition in late November for some public humiliation. I will dress him in plastic bloomers and a nappy with a dummy taped into his mouth and lead him around in baby reins. So at least if you are there you will find it easy to spot Me! A little note for My boiler slave - please call Me to arrange an appointment
At any time I have several email slaves - and this one in particular - writes very well and often makes Me laugh with his feedback reports. I enclose his latest here and wonder if you can guess what his task was?
When I first saw this assignment i spent several days thinking about the logistics of it. I live with my parents and younger brother so i couldnt just set up the ironing board and whip out my cock and get to it. At first i was trying to think of a time when no one would notice me taking the ironing board and iron into my room, which would be suspicious enough since i never iron anything, but after several days i decided what the heck, let
them wonder why i was using the iron and ironing board, not like theyd ever guess the real truth anyway.
So this morning i finally asked my mom where she kept the iron and
ironing board and sure enough she was very surprised about my using it, but gave them to me without question and i brought them into my room and closed the door. I plugged the iron in and let it heat up, i let it heat up too much and had to wait several minutes for it to cool down enough so i wouldnt burn myself, all the time wondering what was my mom thinking about how long i was using it. Finally it was just right, i stacked a few books up and stood on them so i could get my cock and balls on the ironing board and then
just let loose with the iron, i pressed as hard as i could, i guess i could have taken more heat but i still felt how much Mistress Prima controlled my cock and balls.
Here i was mashing my cock and balls on command, hardly something i would do normally. With all Mistress' assignments one of the best parts is being able to masturbate afterwards. I decided since i was in my room id use the Plow yoga technique and cum in my mouth. I assumed the position, stroked my cock and fired a nice big load into my mouth. Thank you Mistress for this assignment. Eagerly awaiting the next one.
I have been toying with the idea of getting together a group of maybe 5 or 10 of My biggest sluts and selling their bodies once per week. I have no idea of the current rate for a cock suck but if I made each one of them suck 10 cocks a night for Me once per week.. I would be considerably richer :)
I am sure that some readers out there are more knowlegeable about these things and could advise Me how to get up to 100 clients at a time in one go. Maybe I need to open a knocking shop.. it would be an excellent business.. as not only would I charge the customers.. of course.. but I would also charge My staff for the honour of working there for Me and being totally used and abused. I am so clever!!
In these times of gloomy and official 'recession' I have decided to do My bit for rebuilding the economy and from now on all Thursday's are going to be 'Champagne Thursday' - I couldn't wait - I started today (well actually, this week I also had a Champagne Monday.. but that's not every week). I must say that it lifted the dark gloomy afternoon somewhat.. and Mistress Kate didn't mind at all lol. What another excellent idea of Mine. Especially nice, slave rob bought Me some lovely flowers today too. Thank you rob.
Now that I have given up smoking - if you wish to bring (or send) Me a gift - Champagne, flowers, jewellery or stockings (large) are always delightful.
It is very important to ALWAYS have something fun going on. I may be busy at any time kicking some poor slave's balls or whatever.. but I always take the time to see the funny side.
until next time
Mistress Prima XX