Diary Entries 2007

December 2007

25th December 2007

I would like to wish all of My diary readers a very merry Christmas and I would like to give a VERY BIG THANK YOU to slave james. He sent Me a most wonderful birthday present in the post yesterday.. £1,000 cash and a lovely birthday card. It was a complete surprise as I have never even met slave james and when he called Me yesterday and explained to Me that he has been long-term unemployed - his very generous gift means all the more to Me and shows such devotion. I have done a little spell for slave james so that he gets a job very soon.

I have been interested in the power of the mind, healing, fortune telling, withcraft and hypnosis since I was very young and have always believed that I have powers. This year alone I have achieved many successes including helping a relative get the job offer that he wanted in a situation that was beginning to look dire.. and oops I did My first ever curse.. on a cheating (now ex) boyfriend.. and he crashed and wrote-off his car within 24 hours of My curse. I don't actually agree with doing bad spells and I did feel a bit guilty afterwards but I have never been treated so badly and I am afraid that I weakened - I am only human after all :)

I have noticed that all of the people that are good to Me in life usually do well and those that try to cut Me up always end up with misfortune. I would be very interested to hear any stories from My slaves that have had things go unexpectedly well for them, for example after sending Me money.

There are many things in the world that cannot be explained and I truly believe that We are all much more powerful than people imagine. I have often fancied the idea of starting My own coven... it's just a matter of time and getting Myself organised. Certainly I intend to manifest all sorts of good things in My life in 2008... it all starts with deciding what you actually want and making sure that you don't have conflicting thoughts. For example - you might want to get that swanky sports car but another part of you is thinking that you'll never be able to afford it, it won't be practical or that the insurance is too high... well while you have conflicting thoughts.. whatever your dreams are, you will not achieve them. So the simple answer is.. when you catch yourself thinking a negative or contradictory thought.. stop yourself. Of course you also need to take action to achieve your dreams but once you are focussed and all your thoughts are positive.. you are on the way to achieving them.

So while lounging around over the holidays, why not think about what you are going to achieve in 2008. Perhaps getting the courage to come and see Me for the first time amongst other things?

Don't forget to take a look at My clips4sale store over the holidays. I have just loaded a new foot worship and adult baby film and will be loading a face-sitting and a breast worship film soon. I have been too busy to update My Members area so far this month but will be loading several films over the next few days.

Have a great time

Mistress Prima XXX

14th December 2007

I will be doing sessions as usual over the next few weeks apart from Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, Boxing Day and New Years Eve (My birthday!!).

Well it's only days to go until Christmas.. and I still haven't done all My shopping yet. I guess that I will have to hit the shops next week - I don't think that I can face the crowds this weekend - it will be horrendous. I have a wicked plan.. to put you off your seasonal turkey, ham or whatever meat you intend to have.. it is meant to be a season of goodwill after all.. and where's the good karma in murder! I shall be having a Quorn Family Roast joint on Christmas day, with chestnut stuffing, roast potatoes, lots of vegetables and vegetarian gravy (Bisto).. Ok I admit it doesn't taste quite as nice as meat.. but it's pretty good.. and My cholestrol has gone down by 20%.. the same as taking medication for the rest of My life!

So if you can face it - go along with My wicked plan to convert you or at least educate you and watch this film. I have actually chosen a slightly tamer one - so as not to offend you too much.. and wouldn't it be great if I can spare the lives of innocent animals and improve your health just by putting this on here! You don't have to be perfect and make all the changes in one day.. for instance I still eat fish occassionally and have some cows milk products in moderation as I am still adjusting to the changes. Funny though as now I wouldn't dream of buying cows milk for My own consumption as Tesco's longlife Sweetened Soya mik tastes really good.. much better than cow's milk.. try it!! (All the brands have a different taste and this is My particular favourite).

Oh and I nearly forgot to mention.. when buying your pressies or spending your gift vouchers.. a wool sweater is not so cool.. watch the second film to see why.

My wish for Christmas and the future is for a peaceful world, with less suffering, more tolerance, love and compassion.. and of course My role is to continue bringing you lots of kinky fun and entertainment (and consensual suffering!!)

bye for now

Mistress Prima XX

6th December 2007

The visit to club Hades went ahead as planned on Saturday night.. we all had a great time - My only complaint is that the club didn't do food, and We arrived planning to eat dinner there :( We managed to get some food on the way home at about 4am, which tasted extra nice as I was so hungry.

My big slut karen's report of her experience of the evening and a photo of her being a big slut are below - if you would like a similar experience - book an overnight session with Me. If you think that being forced to suck a cock is the ultimate humiliation.. imagine it with hundreds of people watching!

Mistress Prima

This is my report as instructed... "It is only when going home after a session, that you can really get your brain around it. Today i was driving home from Mistress Prima after an overnight session involving a visit to Club Hades in London. As i was driving home i just thought - wow - that is as good as it gets, what a fantastic weekend.

i arrived at Mistress Prima's on Saturday evening and had already changed into leather shorts and red festive babydoll. i had my coat, trousers and shoes on but i also had with me a new rubber hood with zip up eyes and mouth from Regulation. Mistress Prima had invited Her good friend Mistress Kate to join us for the visit to the Club. i was really pleased because, having sessioned with Mistress Prima and Mistress Kate at her really well equipped dungeon in Southend, i know what a great dominatrix She is, and great fun as well.

Mistress Prima and Mistress Kate work really well together. Mistress Prima also informed me that we would be joined at the Club by Mistress Pleasuredome with whom i have had a really challenging session at Her Northants dungeon earlier this year. There is a description of that session on Mistress Pleasuredome's website (Blog 16). When we arrived at the Club Mistress Prima ordered me to get changed and put on my hood. So i just had on my leather shorts, red festive babydoll and the hood. We were upstairs and Mistress Kate produced an arm binder and secured my arms behind my back.

Mistress Prima ordered me to start dancing to the music then sent me downstairs to the dance floor. i was dancing opposite two girls, but with restricted vision even with the zips open over my eyes. i could not, of course, use my arms at all. Then suddenly my mouth was zipped shut and then my eyes. i was told to carry on dancing, but soon felt my nipples receiving attention from clamps and fingers. My cock and balls were then kicked and slapped. Mistress then tied me to a pole on the dance floor. Wearing the hood i had no idea of they had abandoned me. i had never been to a fetish club before so the idea of being tied to a pole and fair game for anyone was quite frightening.

Mistress Prima did tell me later that they had thought of leaving me alone, but were concerned that i might be thrashed by a hard core player. Nevertheless, after a little while i felt my nipples being pinched severely and then kicks were aimed at my balls which soon began to ache. i did not, of course have any idea how long this would go on or how severe it would be. When i first visited Mistress Prima i was given the safe word "Red" but have not used it for many months and it is now a matter of pride not to use it, whatever Mistresses Prima and Kate do to me. Fortunately, they know just how far to go to push my limits, and although there were times that night when i almost called out, i was able (just) to bear it. (Perfect!!)

Suddenly my eye slits were opened and i was released. It was a really intimidating to be pulled forward by Mistress Prima, who ordered me to walk faster. Mistress Prima led me into the main dungeon area. i could not see very well but the area seemed very well equipped and i could make out many players with some serious activity. She beckoned for me to get up on a podium with a pole and a hoist. my arms were removed from the armbinder and were pulled up in the air until i was almost on tiptoe. My eyes were zipped shut and i felt a nipple clamp connecting my right nipple to my balls, so when they started hitting my cock and balls every time i jumped i pulled on my nipple.

Strokes on my backside and my front pushed my limits. My relief at being taken off was short lived as i found myself putting a condom on a cock and being told to suck it. A bit of break followed and i had a chance to look round at what else was going on - from whipping to a grope box. Then i was told to get into the box as soon as the previous occupant got out, closing my eye zips as i did so. i lay on my stomach and soon felt something playing with my backside and my neck. Then everything stopped and i was alone.

Suddenly i heard a male voice saying that Mistress Prima wanted me to turn onto my back. i soon found out that the Mistresses were encouraging as many people as possible to put ice cubes on me, squeeze me or tap me. i felt an ice cube being put on my nipple, then on my other nipple and my stomach. More cubes were put down my shorts. When my eye zips were undone all i could see on the inside was a reflection of myself from several angles. i could see different arms, some male and hairy, some female coming through the holes grabbing me, twisting my nipples or hitting my cock with a stick or flogger. Then someone rubbed my cock till i came and Mistress ordered me to drinkt the contents of the condom. After that i was ordered to masturbate until i was hard - having just come that was not easy and i failed as everyone outside laughed at me.

Finally, it got too hot and i was allowed out. Mistress Prima was kind and gave me money for a soft drink. Previously i had been ordered to bargain with anyone i could for the price of two drinks for the Mistresses. Most people there were there in groups of two or three and were not interested in anything i could offer them so i failed as i think Mistress expected me to. Whilst i was having my drink i had a look in the second dungeon where there was some really good rope suspension being done on a young woman. i have only tried rope suspension once and couldn't take it, so i was really impressed with her as a first timer. When the Mistresses returned, Mistress Kate put the armbinder back on me and locked me into a standing cage, pulled my eye zips shut and then pretended to have lost the keys.

When i was finally released the Mistresses took me upstairs onto a whipping bench for some punishment - for some failures such as not getting drinks for them and for splashing Mistress Prima with cider when i tipped over a can. We also had a demonstration of a good elastic bandage wrap and how to mummify a head (mine!!). We left at about 3.00 and went back to Mistress Prima's. Mistress Kate left us and Mistress Prima got me ready for the night. She wrapped me in clear wrap with bondage tape at the main points around my body and put the hood on me zipping the eyes shut.

i was tired so went to sleep almost immediately but was awake for a couple of hours before Mistress Prima woke up. i do love the experience of listening for your Mistress to come down and then do whatever next She has in mind. In Mistress Prima's case, She didn't release me for about another hour, telling me that it was in fact later than it was, so i would worry about what excuse to give foe getting home later than planned. She also used me as Her ashtray and when i spoke too much took off Her panties and gagged me with them, zipping the mouth part shut.

All in all i was in bondage for about eight hours. All i can say is thank You to Mistress Prima and Mistress Kate especially, but also to Mistress Pleasuredome. If You are thinking of a double Domme session, i suggest a visit to Southend - who knows they may agree to take you to a club some time."

big slut karen

I have made a few changes to My adult baby website at www.adultbabyworld.co.uk - check them out if you are an AB or DL.

until next time

Mistress Prima X

25th November 2007

Gosh, My day started awfully today. As I often do, I had set a film rendering as I was about to go to bed last night and when I woke up this morning My PC had crashed.. it often does that. However, this time it was bad and it was looking as though the C drive would have to be written off. It was only then that I thought of all the precious photo's stored on the C drive that I had not backed up. Then to make matters worse, while I had someone working trying to fix the PC.. I went and spilled a cup of tea over My laptop. I couldn't imagine how I could be so stupid.. and I was becoming very irritated.

Well, after many hours of checkdisk and various other remedies it looks like My PC is back to normal.. and I have now backed up My photos onto My external hard drive. As for My laptop.. it is drying out in My airing cupboard as I write this and I will try it out tomorrow.

Thankfully the evening was better and I had a family get-together at My house. We had a great meal and a really nice time and it proved that no matter how badly the day starts it can end nicely.

I am off to Club Hades in Vauxhal on Saturday 1st September with Mistress Kate and hopefully Mistress Pleasuredome and Mistress Cordelia too. My big slut karen and TV christina are coming too and I believe that Mistress Pleasuredome may also bring along a slave. If you would like to come with Us, or if you are planning to go along and wish to be dominated in public at the club - call Me (a tribute is payable). It's not every day that the opportunity to be dominated by four of the UK's top Mistresses at the same time comes along!

I will be sessioning at Mistress Kate's dungeon in Southend tomorrow (Monday 26th) and making some new films. If I have time, I might even go on the webcam too.

That's it for now

Mistress Prima X

12th November 2007

I received an interesting email from a Mistress that reads My Diary. I am always pleased to hear from people, particularly other Mistresses. Mistress Paula has some very wicked ideas and I thought that you might enjoy reading them, here's Her email to Me.. you never know.. I might put slave michael in leathers,, he might even look sexy then, lol:

Greetings Mistress Prima

I am 35 y.o Mistress from Denmark. I am not a professional Mistress, but I have one cashpig, who is also locked in steel chastity belt and I also blackmail him.

I saw your website and you seem to be a very strict and classy Mistress. I really like to tell you what I just did to my slavepig and suggest that you could do exactly same to your blackmail or chastity slaves. My pig's salary comes straight to my account so I am in total control of his financies. Two weeks ago I get tired about my slave old and worn-out clothes so I ordered him to give absolutely all his clothes to charity. Then I gave him little money to buy new clothes.

These are going to be his only clothes. I forced him to local leather store and buy tight, black leather jeans, black leather shirt and short leather biker jacket. Then boots and wide studded leather belt with little chain hanging on it. Now he has been forced to wear only those tight leather outfit everywhere he goes ( he has no other clothes). It was so amusing when he begged me that I give him some money to buy something casual and that he absolutely not going to go to work dressed like this.

I really enjoyed when I ordered him next monday to send me a picture of him (he has a cell phone with camera) and saw him sitting in his office chair wearing those tight leather clothes (good boy). On the evening I asked how was his day and he told that he was so red on face the whole day. Now he has been leathered two weeks and his collagues are started little mocking him..( Paul, could you do this or do I have to whip you..) lol..his family has not seen him in leather but I am going to make it happen someday.. Well, this was just a little idea for you, it is really funny to wear a straight guy like a s/m gayboy..I am really glad if you liked my idea and force your slaves to wear only black leather from head to toe....

Best Regards: Mistress Paula

I shall be visiting a fetish club very soon with Mistress Kate, My big slut karen and perhaps a new TV slave of Mine slutty christina. Mistress Kate and I will enjoy ourselves pitching the two sluts against each other.. seeing who can 'earn' the most drinks for Us by flirting and perhaps having to do more:) you see I will not allow them to take any money with them but it will be their responsibility to provide the drinks and cigarettes all night for Mistress Kate and Myself. I will write about their slutty adventures here after the event.

There was a huge increase in sign-ups for My Members Area after My last diary update. So I will feature news and pics occassionally of what's being updated. There's absolutely hours of films starring me and My Mistress friends.. so join up now if you haven't already. It's only $25.. that's around £12 and all the films are downloadable!! Soon I will be loading about another hour of films of Me and Mistress Kate torturing a slave.. and don't forget to see all the free film trailers at http://www.adultfetishxxx.com/Updates.html

I have been naughty.. I haven't done any webcam sessions now for many weeks. If I switched I'd be deserving a smacked bottom lol but don't get excited... I don't.. I like to ALWAYS be in control!! I am just not good at doing something if I don't feel like it.. that means that whatever I am doing at any time, I am enjoying Myself. Whether it be doing a session, making a film, answering emails or on the webcam. I like to rotate My activities so that I never get bored. I have had a lot of adult baby sessions recently, I do enjoy these and find them relaxing and baby stevie has ordered Me some new 16 layer thick nappies. I look forward to seeing him waddle in those.

Here's another email that I received recently.. I will consider his film idea next time I am filming:

As you can imagine it brings Me great satisfaction to hear how much people are enjoying My films and sessions. I stayed up late last night choosing Myself some lovely jewellery all paid for by money slave david.. ironically not the same financial slave as money slave dave!! I can't wait for it all to arrive. Two gold and gem necklaces and three bracelets.. although the three bracelets are the same as two of them are going to be Christmas presents for some friends of Mine. I would have ordered more but I want to check out the quality of the jewellery first before I buy more. Like all Women, I can't resist lovely shiny gems and gold... and I am so lucky to have generous financial slaves to buy it all for Me.

That's it for now, until next time

Mistress Prima XX

23rd October 2007

Lady Glory's visit to Me for four days was a success. We did some fun sessions together and made some great films - one where We nailed her slave's balls to a piece of wood and then forced him to suck My black slave's cock. The poor slave retched when he had cum sprayed all over his face so I don't think that he will be up for a forced-bi session ever again lol. The film may be purchased at My clip store http://www.clips4sale.com/studio/1010.

Lady Glory also demonstrated Her party trick on film of creating a 'sissy pussy' where using safety pins She tucks away all signs that the slaves ever had a penis. I will be loading that film shortly to both My clips4sale store and My Members Area. Here's a couple of stills from the film.

I have been fascinated by hypnosis and mind control since I was a child and have finally got around to sorting out some hypnosis training for Myself. Once I have mastered the skills I will be able to offer hypnosis within My sessions - which should be fun - and I am also considering the possibility of offering a hypnosis stage show - as I don't believe that any Dominatrix in the world has ever done such a thing. I can see that an X rated show by a famous Dominatrix could be extremely entertaining - for example I could hypnotise members of the audience to believe that I am using My strap-on on them in front of their wives etc. - it would be hilarious - particularly if it was the staid and conservative boss!

All just ideas at the moment - as I need to learn and practice My skills first and then find out if there is a demand for such a show. If any adult entertainment agents are reading this - do contact Me - or if you would like Me to perform at your Christmas work party - as I hope to have the skills by then. Groups do have to be a minimum of 50 people for it to be feasible.

Here's an email from one of My email slaves - I am including it here as I found it quite entertaining:

Mistress Prima,

Thank You for Your concern, i am more convinced each time i hear from You that, not only are You the most outstanding Mistress i have ever encountered, but also a caring and warm person too. You will probably contend that to be such an outstanding Mistress it is necessary to care but in my experience few take this thought to heart. Soya milk and soya margarine have been on my shopping list for a while now and red meat in particular has become a rarity.

Though i suspect that the dread word exercise will have to be employed in my case. Still things are starting to return to normality albeit a new normality. For my second instructions i was to wear the butt plug at work for one full hour. Since my health problem i had cut back on the work i have been doing but at the end of last week i agreed to do one photo shoot for a local recording studio. i wasn’t aware of who or what the shoot would be but having worked in the same studio before i knew roughly what would be required.

Having packed my gear into the car i returned to the house and slipped into the toilet where behind a locked door i could insert the butt plug. This was a first for me so i applied loads of KY jelly to both the plug and me. i was rather surprised at how quickly and easily it pushed in. My first thought being that this was going to be easier than i had thought. i had anticipated problems inserting the plug. It was only when i stood up and tried to walk i felt the truth. It is my guess that some of the areas of the butt plug had become dry after insertion and as i walked they left a kind of burning/friction feel.

Not at all pleasant and no time to redo it. Still it would only need to be in for an hour to obey Your instruction. i could do that surely. The drive was thankfully short and i was grateful that the studio staff helped me with my gear so that i had a minimum of walking, bending and carrying. Once i had most of my gear ready to set up i went through to the lounge and met my subjects for the day. Normally i would have been pleased to meet two young female vocalists but somehow i immediately knew this was going to be uncomfortable and embarrassing if i behaved strangely due to the slippery plug that was really starting to hurt.

It took me a short time to find out what was required and then i set about converting one of the recording booths to my needs. The booths are actually quite large since the studio deals with small orchestras and musical casts as well as would be singers and groups. Anyway the booth was set up to simulate the recording process to do the shot as it was recorded look for the cover and inserts for their c.d. with hopefully a nice shot or two for some posters. The girls had changed when they came through.

Now they were really dressed quite provocatively with high boots, leather trousers and tight tops. One of the girls had a top that was practically see through and required careful lighting. She wanted to look teasing but not too revealing. They were both keen to come across as sexy since this might prove a lure to agents and public alike. Once i started working i had to confess that i concentrated more on the pictures than the girls with the butt plug adding a rather surreal aspect to the proceedings.

When shooting i try to focus on the job only stopping to think about if the subject is sexy in a removed way. i generally don’t do sexy photos with most people too embarrassed to pose for that sort of shot. So it was ironic that the one time i get this sort of job i have a plug in my butt and have to move in ways that increased my discomfort. my poor little cock wanted me to let it straighten out and stand with my legs wider apart than usual but the plug felt like it might escape if it did. It didn’t help that the girls thought that if they were turning me on, then the pictures would be a turn on for any viewers. Hell i did get turned on and must have seemed extremely strange moving about adjusting backgrounds, lights and model poses in a strange manner.

Still i had at least the comforting thought that You might be amused by the situation Your instruction placed me in. It was almost an hour and half i worked taking the shots after which i ran or at least ‘minced’ to the toilet and removed the plug which i washed and stowed away. The studio allows me to use their computers to process the images and usually a client can have the c.d. artwork and posters that day which helps since it is a fact in photography that the longer there is between taking pictures and producing a result the less interest in paying for it. (Weddings being a prime example of this.) The experience was uncomfortable, even sore and not only that but it had an embarrassing factor that will probably come to mind each time i am asked to work with the studio.

These people know me quite well and while nothing was said to me i am convinced i acted rather strange. i also have to confess to being easier aroused with the plug in place but i find this an uncomfortable confession to make as it has a gay element to it and i would not consider myself gay in any way. i hope i have pleased You with this account and i look forward to hearing from You again.

i am Yours, Mistress Prima to command,

berni

From: mistressprima@hotmail.com

Date: Sun, 9 Sep 2007 14:38:39 +0000

Dear slave berni,

I am very sorry to hear about your health problems. It seems as though my diet intervention came a little too late! The good news is that diabetes can be turned around and maybe even eradicated with a healthy vegan diet. Cut out all the cheese, milk, cream and replace with Soya milk which lowers cholestrol. If you still want to eat animal products then just an occassional piece of fish or lean organic chicken with lots of salad and vegetables. Oats are very good too for reducing cholestrol and controlling blood sugar.. and white bread is terrible... cut it out if you can.

I enjoyed picturing you all embarrassed when buying your butt plug.. now I am going to ask you to wear it while at work for 1 full hour.. you will need some KY Jelly too.. available from any chemist. I want a full report on your adventure. Mistress Prima

You may be surprised to read that I would give a slave diet advice - he originally informed Me that his health was poor - so I decided to incorporate some healthy habits into his email domination - such as exercise. I may do some extreme things to My slaves but ultimately I do like people and care about them - and that I belive makes Me a better Dominatrix not a weaker one.

I was meant to have baby stevie over for an overnight visit this evening but I had to cancel (something that I rarely do) as I was feeling that I was coming down with flu or something. Ironically someone else also asked for an overnight session this evening. Baby stevie is rescheduled for next week and I got lots of sleep and feel a bit better now. I had a session with money slave paul earlier today - he turned up and gave Me £300 for the hour but I have learned that he keeps some more money hidden.. so I told him to fetch that too.. and he gave Me the last contents of his wallet..another £105. All great fun!!

I am looking for a reliable slave with Flash and website design skills - and will consider giving some free sessions in return. If you can help email Me.

Until next time

Mistress Prima XX

4th October 2007

Well, I got the news re: the dungeon that I visited - they only had the capacity for one more Mistress and someone else had got there before Me. It's a shame as it was a lovely place but then again I wasn't too keen on travelling into central London several times a week. I do believe that it all turns out the way it is meant to in the end.

About two years ago, when My Mother died, a hypnotherapist contacted Me after reading My diary and kindly gave Me some telephone sessions. I did not keep his details but would like to speak with him again. So, in the hope that he still reads My diary - please contact Me again as I have some questions.

I have been on a bit of a health kick lately. The other week I was fasting for five days and just drinking this cleansing herbal mix from the USA recommended to Me by Mistress Pleasuredome. I have never fasted before or gone so long without food and thought that it might be very difficult but I actually enjoyed it as I felt great. You are supposed to end a fast gently, however I fancied an Indian takeaway.. and I thought that if I had only half a portion that I would be alright.

Boy, did I pay the price for that decision - I felt fine when I was eating it - but then I had the worst case of indegestion possible and was up until 4am with agonising pain in My chest and upper back. It felt like I was dying but at the same time I could see the funny side because I had brought it on Myself. I have never been one to follow the rules exactly and occassionally I get taught an unexpected lesson or two but then that's life :)

At the weekend I joined a gym and have been working out intensively since - it will be My fourth visit tomorrow. I do work up quite a sweat and I feel better already. What with moving house and other things last year, I let My old gym membership lapse and so haven't really exercised properly for almost two years.. although some sessions of course are very physically demanding such as carrying - so I always maintain a certain level of fitness and strength. Of course, I won't answer My telephone whilst working out so if you can't get through just call Me back later.

Mistress Kate will be visiting Me in Chigwell this coming Tuesday and Lady Glory will be visiting Me for four days on Monday 15th October. Double Domme sessions are available at £220 for one hour. I also require some reliable slaves for forced-bi filming - email Me with your photo and availability.

I haven't quite got Myself into a routine yet with the webcamming - I have been doing some here and there when I feel like it - but I realise that it is difficult to catch Me if you are desperate to chat with me. So I am going to try and always be on-line most of Saturday afternoons and evenings as well as other times of course... dependent on how busy I am with sessions and film making.

In between sessions tomorrow, I shall be doing a photo shoot with slave michael.. who incidentally is still locked into his neo-steel chastity device with the padlock gummed up with nail varnish soaked tissue - which I pushed down into the lock with a tooth pick:) He has no release date ever.. poor soul.. and now says that he is getting used to it - ha ha. Experienced photographers with their own lights etc. are welcome to contact Me if you would like to do a photo shoot with Me... particularly if you have your own studio - I may even bring along some of My Mistress friends too.

I'd like to say a big thank you to money slave dave for decorating My bedroom so beautifully for Me and also for the new red boots. And as I haven't mentioned My big slut karen for a while here is 'her' latest email. Under My instruction 'she' is taking female hormones and hopefully her budding breasts are coming along nicely:

Mistress Prima

Thank You for setting me yet another task. i am writing this email on my computer at 7.36pm. Whenever my phone beeps that i have a message i now wonder whether it is You setting me an immediate task. my immediate problem with this task was to get to my suitcase and remove my buttplug and condom to cover it with without anyone else in the house wondering why i had a big suitcase hidden in the garage.

However, mission accomplished and i have had the butt plug in for 5 minutes now so have just started my two hour session. i am of course sitting on my computer chair so that is keeping the butt plug in. i am expecting that as the lubrictation on the condom gets absorbed it will stay in better. i can feel it stretching my back passage. i notice that You are really busy at the moment and i do appreciate that You are making time for me.

i am sure i must owe You for the instructions You are sending me, but i am sure You will find a way for me to pay, either by instruction or the next session!! Thank You for allowing me to masturbate after i have completed this two hour task and my report. i will be wearing my satin nightie/slip which i love. 8.39pm - over half way through. my backside is beginning to ache. i will finish this email at the end of the two hour session. 9.35 task completed. my wife is in the room unaware that i am writing this with a sore butt and plug in. i am now off to get my nightie on...

Yours respectfully

big slut karen

Until next time - and be good at being naughty,

Mistress Prima X

6th September 2007

It was a busy week last week. I went to visit a potential dungeon in central London on Monday and will be making My mind up over that soon. The idea of working in Central London is exciting but what with the tube strikes and hot crowded carriages I am not totally sure yet - the reality might not be so good. I had Mistress Pleasuredome stay with me for the weekend and We did our first ever webcam sessions on Friday evening. My first one was hilarious - the webcam kept dropping on the floor and I really didn't know what I was doing lol.

The slave was very sweet, patient and adoring though and I now have the hang of it and have done many successful webcam sessions including group sessions where I put on a live strap-on show with one of My TV slaves yesterday. It's quite exciting watching all the people drop in to view the action - anyone that follows My diary updates will have worked out by now that I love the challenge and variety of new things. I thought that I'd mention slave toiletpig - who is absolutely addicted to webcamming with Me. Of course, I totally abuse him and charged him double for a webcam session then made him pay a further £100 into My account. That's the life for a weak slave ha ha. I shall continue to rape his wallet whenever I get the opportunity.

Mistress Pleasuredome and I started Saturday in a lovely relaxing way - we went for a spa morning at Esporta, in Repton Park, Chigwell and sat chatting together in the jacuzzi before having a relaxing lunch there. After a leisurely morning we came back to My place and got on with Our sessions which included CP, CBT, face sitting and watersports.. such fun! On Sunday We were webcam sessioning a lot of the day.

I am off to Mistress Kate's again this Friday and We are both available for sessions and webcam sessions all day. We will be putting on some live shows throughout the day too available on Directcam - see the link above. Last time I visited Mistress Kate, some of My friends met Me in Southend at 8pm and took Me to the rides and then for a meal at 11.00pm. After a day of sessioning, I was absolutely exhausted at the end of it all - so this time I will simply drive home and chill out in the evening.

I had done very well with My non-smoking, then someone requested a smoking fetish session. I foolishly thought that I would be alright but the damn drug got its hook in Me again and now I have to give up again. This time when I give up that will have to be it.. no more smoking in sessions ever again. I actually managed a full ten weeks without smoking but at the moment I am back on twenty a day! I will re-find that willpower again soon.

I have decided to treat Myself to a caribbean cruise once the weather gets grey and cold. I have been on a couple of cruises so far and have always enjoyed Myself. I prefer the more formal atmosphere where people are obliged to dress for dinner and it is great sunbathing on My private balcony when the ship is out at sea.

Until next time,

Mistress Prima X X

30th August 2007

I have been having some really good ideas lately. I am thinking of having an extension built on My house in Chigwell so if any slaves with building firms would like to offer their services or generous money slaves - please contact me asap. What will I do with the extra room? I will set up a dungeon. Although I have been managing perfectly fine without a dungeon and doing My sessions in a domestic environment I do miss certain items such as My cage to keep slaves in overnight. In the meantime I will be sessioning every Friday at Mistress Kate's dungeon rooms in Southend - this provides the option of a dungeon environment if you prefer that and also the possibility of a double Domme session - if you think that you can handle it lol.

I sessioned with Mistress Kate at her place this Wednesday gone and We work very well together. Two people said that it was their best session ever!! Call Me on My usual number to make an appointment.

Mistress Pleasuredome is visiting me this weekend - arriving Friday evening and leaving Monday morning - so if you would like to book a session with either/both of us - call Me to make an appointment.

I will be offering live webcam sessions from now on. I am in the process of setting it up and slave dave My latest ATM slave has kindly paid for a new webcam to go onto My laptop. I think that it will be quite exciting to do some themed hours such as a foot hour and a forced-bi hour where as many slaves as possible can join Me and watch the action. Of course I will also be doing some webcam sessions when My Mistress friends are visiting Me and when I am at Mistress Kate's on Fridays. If you have any suggestions that you think may be popular email me.

I have also been busy making films and there is a new page on My Members Area at http://www.adultfetishxxx.com/Updates.html which currently has eleven free film trailers on there. Do sign-up as it is incredible value at only $25 for one month or $50 for three months for around one hundred and fifty films. I will not be keeping the price this low for much longer!

That's it for now - join Me soon either on webcam or in a session.

Mistress Prima X X

15th August 2007

Quite a few people recently have mentioned the adventures of My big slut karen - the TV slave that I have under contract and am slowly turning into a Woman. I hadn't realised just how much 'she' had featured in My diary entries but as so many people are following 'her' adventures and 'she' came to see me last week for a session I thought that I would include some pics of what we got up to. Firstly slut karen had to show Me her budding breasts so that I could check whether the daily hormone tablets were having the desired effects. The breast area is getting slightly fuller and much more sensitive and slut karen has been ordered to wear nipple clamps at work to make the most of that increased sensitivity. Then I put slut karen's cock and balls into a wooden humbler and tied her up before torturing her.

She can take quite a lot of suffering but even she found being forced upright with the humbler dragging down on her cock and balls too much to bear. At the end of the session I sent slut karen away with her male clothes locked in a bag with a coded padlock. Her instructions were to text me a photo to prove that she had masturbated two hours later and I would then text back the code to the padlock so that she could get out her male clothes and make-up remover etc. I love keeping a slave in tension like that while they wonder whether I will forget or just refuse to do what I promised.. ha ha. Here's the pics of My big slut karen:

Lady Glory will be visiting Me between the 15th and 18th October and We will both be available for sessions during those days. Book in advance as I expect these sessions to be very popular.

Until next time

Mistress Prima XX

24th July 2007

Hi - it's been a while since My last diary entry and I know that some of you sweeties were getting concerned about Me. I simply took a bit of time out for Myself and one of the things that I have been concentrating on was giving up smoking. Now I know that will terribly disappoint some of you but at the end of the day it is MY HEALTH that would suffer if I kept smoking and I am sure that you would prefer to have your favourite Mistress in full health and around for all those extra years!! It is now six weeks since I had a cigarette.. I went cold turkey and have relied on good old fashioned discipline and will power to achieve My goal.

My self-discipline was tested to the brink when I visited Mistress Pleasuredome for Her birthday party two weeks ago.. four of her guests were chain smoking in front of Me all night but I am very pleased to say that My resolve remained as strong as ever.

People that know Me will know that I don't like to do anything if I feel bored with it. That's why I rotate sessions with film making and other things. I did get bored with making films and haven't made that many this year at all however I now feel ready to start making some more so if you would like to appear in one of My films email Me with your photo and availability. I would particularly welcome female slaves or dominant Ladies.

I will be doing some forced-bi filming this Saturday if you would like to join in with that call Me instead of emailing Me as I don't read My email every day.

So clearly I will not be offerring smoking fetish as a service in My sessions any more but a suitable replacement may be CP and CBT as punishment if you smoke.. and confiscation and destruction of your cigarettes.

Poor slave michael has been locked up in his chastity device a while now... I said that I MAY releease him for 20 minutes if he has lost suffiecient weight.. the trouble for him is that I decide at the time what sufficient consists of... ahh .. poor slave micheal.

Big slut karen was sent to Mistress Pleasuredome and received some suitable treatment.. here's her report:

Mistress

i am just getting my head back to normal after the wonderful three hour session with You yesterday. It was of course added to by having to walk across the town centre dressed to You and back again dressed and a bit dishevelled. i did get back to my car without incident.

You obviously took great care to read my email and pack in a great variety of my interests. i knew it was going to be a good session from the moment You secured me to the bondage frame with a rubber gas mask and singed my pubic hairs off with Your lighter. The electrics were great - just powerful enough. Then the prostate massage was excellent - again You judged it about right.

i loved the bondage on Your bed - the sensory deprivation was really good coupled with the music. i loved the way You returned and face sat on me whilst the other lady painted My toenails. i was also really pleased that You got the tube mask to work and did some breath control with the dildo. At the same time the cutting of my hair was completed with scissors.

Finally the toilet training and being allowed to cum finished a great session. The nipple clamps at the end helped. Thank You so much.

Of course i did not know what You would do to me for my journey home and i left you with cum all inside my knickers, my pubic hair trimmed, a generous spray of Your perfume on me, my toenails painted and the taste of Your nectar in my mouth.

In case You wondered, i did get home without incident and went for a rapid shower!!

With best wishes

big slut karen

PS, Mistress Prima - i hope that i have completed this task satisfactorily.

Mistress Prima XXX

28th May 2007

I enjoyed My time in Spain. The music video was hard work, twelve hour days with a lot of hanging around between scenes while the lighting guys got everything ready. I had some time after the shoot and recorded some music tracks with My friend ND. I have now set up accounts at YouTube and MySpace where you may listen to My music and watch some free short videos. Once I have got a complete album together I will be releasing it for sale. A friend of Mine suggested that I put together a raunchy stage show to go with the music - now that would be interesting.

I do enjoy new challenges all the time and I have decided to enrol Myself onto a belly dancing class.. once I have mastered it you may even get to see Me perform in one of My music videos.

My autobiography is now finished and is available as an e-book from Chipmunkpublishing for £5 - do let me know what you think of it. The paperback version is coming out in September and will be available from Chipmunkapublishing.com as well as Amazon.com.

I have booked Myself a holiday in Thailand and will be away for three weeks in August - so make sure that you get your sessions booked in before then.

I have bought Myself an absolutely gorgeous little Chihuahua puppy. He is called Terry and he is tiny and a beautiful off-white colour and he already adores his new Mummy. The likes of Paris Hilton and Britney Spears have made Chihuahuas trendy and very expensive but readers of My diary will know that I had My last little baby for almost fifteen years - until a year and a half ago. What can I do if the stars copy Me!!

My big slut karen has been a very good girl and done all of her tasks as requested and she may be surprised to read here that her next task is to book an appointment with My good friend Mistress Pleasuredome and to travel up to see Her fully dressed. I will of course hear all about it from Mistress Pleasuredome as We chat regularly. In fact I may even be visiting Dubai with Mistress Pleasuredome in the near future to check out doing sessions there. I already have four slaves waiting for Me to visit Dubai and as soon as Mistress Pleasuredome has the time, We will make arrangement to go there together. If any slave wishes to accompany Myself and Mistress Pleasuredome on the trip - email Me - and We will consider you. You would be expected to pay for both Mistresses' flights and accomodation but you will be treated as a slave for the duration of the trip - so quite an exciting holiday for someone!

Until next time

Mistress Prima

5th April 2007

I'd like to wish all of My diary readers a very happy Easter. I have not finalised My plans for Easter yet but if I am around I may be available for sessions.. with an appointment of course.

I am going to Spain on the 19th April to appear in a friend of Mine's music video. It is one more of My life ambitions to cross off My list as I have always fancied the idea of appearing in a music video. It is turning out to be a collaboration between several very creative people and I am really looking forward to it. You never know, I may even get to sing too.

I had a bit of fun and wrote some lyrics too about a slave needing to be dominated. I don't know yet whether We will get to use them but it is just great fun trying out different things.

Some of My slaves may be aware that I became a vegetarian about six months ago. I was recently doing some research on the health benefits and I came accross some horrendous films showing the barbarity of how animals are treated. I ask you to take a few minutes of your time and watch the following two films and then encourage other people that you know to watch them.

They are pretty horrific and disturbing films - even worse than Mine - but I believe that many people are ignorant to what is going on and what they are indirectly supporting.

The first film to watch is here: Peta.org I am sure that you will NEVER enjoy a KFC meal again after watching this.

The second film to watch is here: http://www.meat.org/

And if you are at all inspired and wish to watch more and be more informed:

http://getactive.peta.org/campaign/pink_wool_video?qp_source=pinkpetagen

Please let Me know what you make of the films and I will be especially pleased to hear if they encourage you to give up eating meat. It only makes you fat and gives you cancer and heart disease anyway!

I am a few weeks behind schedule with My book but it is coming along nicely. I have shown the manuscript to only two people so far and one of them found it too shocking to read. I am curious to find out what people will make of it.

I have to have an operation on the 3rd May. I have to have two wisdom teeth removed as like most people, they have no room to come through properly.

I have also recently given up milk - if you watch the 'meet your meat' film you will know why. There was no way though that I could give up chocolate for life and I have now got used to dark chocolate (it doesn't have any milk in it). I am not sure that I could eat a whole Easter egg made of dark chocolate though.. it is not as 'moorish' as milk chocolate .. so I doubt that I'll be eating any Easter eggs this Easter.

I will though be having a great time and hope that you do too.

bye for now

Mistress Prima XX

8th March 2007

I had a nice drive to Bluewater this Saturday, it was sunny so I managed to have the roof down on My car for the journey there. I bought Myself some nice toiletries in L'Occitane, one of My favourite toiletry shops and some stockings and tights from Wolford's. The shops have lots of lovely bright dresses for the summer which I look forward to buying once the weather gets warmer.

My big slut karen was forced to write a story for me last week, she's been waiting patiently for her instructions since then. I thought that I'd share her instructions and her story with all of you.. just for the fun of it.

Big slut karen... you actually have two instructions this week as I have been busy and kept you waiting. Instruction one - you must come for an overnight bondage session on Tuesday 10th April - I have given you plenty of notice to make up something to tell your wife.. and you may leave early enough the next day to go to work.. although you may be rather tired ha ha. Your second instruction - I want you to go to the Wayout Club by yourself, dressed as a Woman of course and you must email Me a photo of yourself kissing a guy with the club clearly visible in the background - to prove that you were there. This task must be completed before you come for your overnight session otherwise I will be calling your secretary with some very bad news from the STD clinic. I don't want any excuses - these tasks are non-negotiable.

Below is big slut karen's story, I found it very good and hope that you enjoy it.

Until next week,

Mistress Prima X

Cleavage

(This is a work of fiction)

This is a call for help. i am somewhere in middle Europe. i don’t know where. i was hooded when She brought me here. i am now her feminised slave. i spend every night in a cage in chains. By day i am her submissive maid, dressed in a maid’s outfit with a 15-inch hobble skirt locked on and padlocked five inch heels. It is hard to work well with my enormous breasts and my tiny corsetted waist, and the effect of the hobble, the heels, the long nails She makes me wear and any other restriction that She adds, without the fear that any time She will ring the bell for me to come and serve one of Her slaves. Mistress Prima – if you get this, please get me out of here. i have suffered enough.

How did i get into this mess? Well, i have had no one to blame but myself. i had been asking Mistress Prima for a slave contract for a long time. She said i would have to wait until She was ready. She always liked to keep her slaves in suspense.

It had started with monthly sessions. Each time i had to wear an extra item of female clothing. Matters had advanced to the point where i turned up fully dressed as a woman and even went out in public dressed. She called me Her big slut karen. Then i started email training and that was fun. i never knew what She would command me to do next. It might be simple such as wearing a piece of female underwear to work, or more challenging such as having a makeover in a department store. But inevitably it started to get stale. There are limits to what can be done if you are married and in a responsible job.

i think that She knew it too. She ordered me over for an overnight bondage session. There is nothing like being in bondage to make you agree to anything. I was in a tight hog-tie and i was blindfolded. Then She sprung it on me.

“I’m just going out to your car”, she said, “I’m going to get your male clothes.” I heard the front door close and a little later it opened. By this time i was getting very nervous. i was going to say something but She spoke first. “you wanted it to get serious. Well, now it’s your choice. Say no and I will untie you; you can get dressed and go home. Say yes and you agree to whatever comes next.”

Alarm bells should have rung. This was fantasy crashing into reality. i was getting way outside my comfort zone. But i am an adrenaline junkie and, boy, was i getting my adrenaline fix. i paused for a few moments, then said “Yes, Mistress”. Mistress Prima is very careful to make sure Her slaves understand the consent they are giving, so She gave me another chance. “you do understand that if you go through with this I will take over your life, your marriage, your job? you will be My slave and the tests will be severe? Do you still say yes?”

i spoke clearly and firmly “Yes, Mistress. i agree. i am sure this is what I want.” Those were the last words i spoke for a while. Immediately a large ball-gag was inserted into my mouth and i could only do two things, mumble incoherently and drool. Mistress Prima is firm but fair. my loss of speech was balanced by regaining my sight. Then i realised what my future held. There She was, holding my suit trousers disdainfully in Her left hand as far way from Her as She could. In Her right hand was a pair of pinking shears. In a few moments my trousers were in shreds and shortly after all the rest of my male clothes followed them. Never mind, i thought, i can easily buy some replacements on my credit card on the way home. Then She went into my handbag. “Oh look”, She sneered, “Cards with your horrid male name on.” I could not believe what I was seeing. All my cards were soon cut up. All i had left was fiver in my bag.

The blindfold was replaced, earplugs went into my ears and the gag was removed. I was being made ready for my overnight stay. If i could get to sleep, maybe i could forget what i had agreed to and think of a way to plead with Her tomorrow for a way out. Suddenly i felt something attached to my dick. i realised it was one of Her electric toys. i shrieked as the pain hit me and i had a long sleepless night to think about a way out.

The morning came. Well, i didn’t know it had come until the electrics were switched off. “Thank You, Mistress.” i said. i thought it best to wait until i was in a better position to negotiate. As it happened, i didn’t need to. Mistress Prima had a proposal for me.

“big slut karen, I’m feeling generous today”, She said. “I know that if you go home dressed that will be the end of your marriage, and I’m not ready for that just yet.” She rattled a box at me. “These are oestrogen tablets. The recommended dose is two tablets a day. I want you to take four a day. One in the morning, one at lunchtime, one at teatime and one before you go to bed. Here are four packs, which will last you a month. Oh and because I am feeling generous, here are some hormone patches to go on your boobs. I am going out with you to get you a tee shirt, a pair of jeans and a pair of trainers, which will pass for men’s clothes. In exchange, I want to see you in a month with a decent pair of tits. Unless I am satisfied with them, I will wreck your marriage.”

And so it started. i had a target to meet. i felt my male boobs and there was nothing there – a little fat and tiny nipples. In case you are wondering, i did manage to get home and change out of my female but androgynous clothes without raising suspicion. i had to make up a story about losing my cards but got new ones in about two weeks. By then, the hormones were kicking in. my nipples became very sensitive and got quite hard. There was nothing i could do about it. i was getting a bit emotional and once, found myself crying for no reason. i took the tablets as instructed and wore the patches. After three weeks i could definitely feel my breasts filling out and noticed my areolae getting bigger and darker.

The four weeks were up. It was time to face the music. Would my budding breasts be enough for Mistress Prima, or would She pull the plug on my marriage? i hoped She would be satisfied as i was beginning to wonder how i would stop my wife noticing. i parked outside, dressed in my usual female clothes. But this time there was a difference. Instead of my usual silicone breasts, i was wearing only a bra, as instructed. i was really nervous as i didn’t think my new boobs were very big at all. i had bought a gel bra with plenty of uplift, in a vain attempt to show Mistress some cleavage. i didn’t think it would be enough, and i was right; Mistress Prima was caustic in Her comments. She mocked my poor attempt at a cleavage. After some pleading, and some punishment, She agreed to give me one more chance. i had to take eight tablets a day, use the patches all the time and She ordered me to get some anti androgens to suppress my male hormones. This was getting very serious. i was not at all confident about what it would do to me. But maybe i would get a cleavage that would be enough and somehow keep it from my wife.

i really started not to feel well. my nipples got very hard and sore. i really began to notice the fat on my chest. Then disaster struck. my wife gave me a cuddle in bed one night. “What on earth are these?” she said as she felt the lumps on my chest. i really should have prepared for this, but i was not thinking straight – it was the effect of the massive dose of hormones inside me. i burst into tears and confessed all.

By the time i visited Mistress Prima next, i had moved out. Although Mistress could no longer threaten me with ending my marriage, She could still end my job. i knew that i had to show Her a decent cleavage. And after two months, at last there it was. i still had my uplift gel bra on. She was not glowing in Her praise but seemed satisfied. i was expecting this to be the end of it. After all i had sacrificed a lot, a hell of a lot, for this. i had had my fantasy fulfilled. But of course, I had agreed willingly to be Her slave and this was not the end, but the start.

Again she tied me up. She produced a chastity device. Not one of those plastic ones you can slip out of, but a serious metal one with a handcuff lock. She locked it onto me. “Now I have you” She said. She informed me that She would post the key to another Mistress, a Mistress in another country. My task was to grow my breasts myself, until i had at least a DD chest. Then i could contact her again and She would give me a flight to book. i would be met at the airport at the other end and meet my new Mistress.

i would spend a month with my new Mistress. At the end of the month, if i had attained Her standards, i would be released from my chastity device and allowed to fly home. If not, i would stay until She considered i had passed.

Back in my little flat, i had time to take it all in. i was going to have to take large amounts of hormones to have chance of growing my breasts to a DD size. How could i continue to work as a man, with breasts that big? What would people in my block think? i was going to have to fly out of Heathrow en femme, sit on an airplane en femme. What would my new Mistress do to me?

For the next few months, i carried on taking the hormones and my work continued. i had increasing difficulty concentrating on it. my chastity device was often painful, even though my dick was shrinking. my hormones were affecting my moods. After six months, matters came to a head. i could not face going into work. i took sick leave. Eventually my employers decided to give me early retirement to get me out of the way. i had a reasonable pension, at least. i started to dress more and more, but was still reluctant to go out too far dressed and particularly in very feminine clothes.

i was summoned to see Mistress Prima again one day. my mobile rang and She spoke to me. She informed that i had one hour to get there. i was not dressed and the journey took at least forty minutes. So i turned up in a pair of jeans, trainers, a bra and tee shirt. my hair was thinning and so i had to wear a wig rather than be able to grow anything convincing. But not today, i was in too much of a hurry. She was not impressed. i was ordered to strip. She tied me up with rope and gave me a very painful caning. She measured my breasts and noted that they were still only a C. “I can see that you are slacking in your personal grooming.” She said, “I will soon fix that.”

She sent me away and I wondered what was to come. A month later, to the day, She turned up, at my door, with two male slaves. They pushed past me and went in. They were carrying empty boxes. They went through every cupboard, drawer and wash basket. Every piece of clothing i had, male or female was removed. All my shoes went as well. She roughly measured me and noted that i was now just about a D cup.

“Cards!” She ordered, and i handed over my handbag. “PIN?” She asked and i gave it to her willingly. At least She might get me something to wear.

i sat at home for hours. i wondered if they would ever come back. i had no money, no cards and no clothes. There was nothing to do but wait. It was the evening before they returned. They brought in bag after bag. Mistress tossed my handbag back at me and told me that I was forbidden to buy any other clothes than the ones they had bought me. Any deviation and my chastity device would never come off. She then left and i was alone.

i opened the first bag and gasped. There were two pairs of shoes. Both had three inch heels. The second bag had a skirt that would barely cover my bum. The third bag had bras in it. Varying colours, none plain. One had what looked like eyelashes on top of the cups. All were plunge uplift bras designed to give me a cleavage, and all were DD size. i realised that i was not only going to be en femme all the time, but sluttily en femme as well. Indeed, when i looked at the tops and dresses, all had a plunge neckline so no matter what i chose to wear, i would have a decent cleavage.

i decided that the sooner i got to my new Mistress, the sooner i could get back to normal, although i knew that my boobs would never go down to a male size. i faithfully took the tablets and applied the patches. i spent all my time as a woman. i found it difficult as all my clothes drew attention to me and i got looks everywhere i went. i went to some clubs and met some men but couldn’t bring myself to go home with them. i think i just wanted to get this nightmare over.

Finally, i had a pair of DD breasts. i have to admit they looked pretty damn good. i left it a couple of weeks before i contacted Mistress Prima. i was hoping that She would send me on my way quickly. i was still not used to the humiliation of the clothes She made me wear. She quickly dashed my hopes. “Three months.” She said. “you have to live as a slut for three months.” The three months dragged by. I spent my time concentrating on make up, trying to make myself more convincing. I never got used to my breasts, which were still getting bigger. My feet still ached from constantly wearing heels. And winter came. i realised that Mistress Prima had not given me anything suitable for cold weather. All i had to wear were short skirts, thin tops and strappy sandals with stiletto heels. i stood out even more than before. my growing breasts showed off even more cleavage. i shivered as i went to the shops for food. my nipples stood out like doorknobs. i would have given anything for a padded bra, not the thin ones that i had to wear.

Finally the three months were up. Even though my dick had shrunk, it was still uncomfortable in its steel prison. Mistress Prima picked me up and took me to the airport. She gave me my tickets. They were to Prague. i checked in and the staff did a double take as they looked at my name and picture and at me. i had to tell them i was a tv. The same happened at security. i had never been so embarrassed. My small piece of pink hand baggage and my tiny purse added to my embarrassment. Finally the flight took off and i hoped my ordeal was nearing its end. How wrong I was!!

After a two-hour flight we landed at Prague’s Ruzyne Airport. i managed to get through passport control with no long explanation. They seemed to have seen it all before. i should have suspected something. It was even colder in Prague than in London. i was freezing but followed Mistress’s instructions and walked out of the terminal.

There She was. my new Mistress. Dark haired red lipstick. Fur coat. And stern looking. As i had been warned i knelt down in front of Her. She simply said, “Hands behind your back!” i complied and she cuffed my hands behind my back. She then put a collar round my neck and let me off to the car park. Most people didn’t notice, but enough did. We got to the car and She opened the boot. She produced a tight leather hood with zips over the eyes and mouth. She stuffed some plugs in my ears and then told me to get in. i managed to climb in and looked at Her. She was beautiful. How tough could She be? It was the last time i saw anything for many hours. Fortunately i had gone to the loo on the plane just before landing and had restricted my drinking.

On went the hood. Zip, zip zip. i was speechless, blind and deaf. i did hear the boot slam shut. i have no idea how long it was. i don’t know what borders we crossed. i don’t know where we ended up. Still, i thought, at least release was near.

It wasn’t. She is evil. My maid’s uniform is lined with hessian. It rubs on my boobs, which are now really sore. It rubs everywhere. She summons me with a bell and i shuffle towards her as quickly as i can. My body aches, my legs ache. She commands me in Czech, Hungarian or some language i cannot understand. Never English. So it takes me ages and many beatings until i know what She wants. Oh and i still have my penis trapped in that tube.

i long to be back in my flat in England, even dressed as a slut all the time. Mistress Prima, if you get this, please take me back. i will be Your slave forever. i will be proud of the cleavage You have given me.

1st March 2007

In My last diary entry I mentioned that I was thinking of writing a book. I am pleased to say that since then I have signed contracts with Chipmunka Publishing and have already got about half of My book written. I aim to have it finished by the end of March and it should be available in paperback in April from this site, the publishers and on-line stores like Amazon. The title is 'A Dominatrix Revealed' by Mistress Prima and it is a very honest autobiography, written in the style of My diary entries, based in the present with lots of my thoughts and feelings, flashbacks to My past and recollections of BDSM experiences.

What it is not is a big advert for My services saying how wonderful I am. I called it a Dominatrix Revealed because I believe that it will be the most revealing account of a dominatrix ever available so far. It feels a little bit scary, the thought of revealing intimate details about My childhood and personal life but I believe that My story is interesting and will hopefully help and inspire some people. It would be fantastic if it was made into a Hollywood film... suggestions welcome as to who should play Me.

It has been a personal ambition of mine all My life to write a book and now it is going to happen. I am enjoying writing so much that I intend to start book two as soon as I finish this one. Perhaps I'll write a book of sex tips for women, after all I have heard the sexual fantasies of thousands of men over the years, and all that knowledge should be recorded and used to help people in some way.

I also requested some help from some HTML experts in My last diary entry and paul and lars have been working hard on My behalf. A big thank you to both of them. My Niteflirt pages now look much better thanks to Lars and Paul will be producing materials for My next venture - an affiliate programme for My member's area http://www.adultfetisxxx.com.

The membership numbers of My members area is growing but nowhere near the rate that I was hoping for. The affiliate programme will hopefully speed up its growth and I need to add more photographs before I can put it forward for review by sites like Rabbitsreviews.com. If any readers out there have relevant website promotion skills or want to help with producing or loading the photosets please get in touch.

I will be making some new films this week, continuing with My book and doing sessions too of course.

Until next time,

Mistress Prima XX

8th February 2007

It's freezing here in the UK - My car thermometer said it was -5C today. At least I have heated seats and power heating in My Saab and a lovely warm house or I would be dying now as I really don't like the cold. I am affected financially, too, when there is ice or snow as people tend to cancel their sessions if they are worried about travelling safely.

I had an idea last week about travelling to Dubai for one week a month and doing a couple of sessions there. As one of the UK's top pro-dommes and a star of world-wide selling films I could of course charge a premium. It appeared to be a good idea until I looked into it further. I have never been to the UAE and was under the impression that things were becoming more liberal and open to western ways. However a couple of days research and some good advice from various friends and another Mistress that knows the area have convinced Me otherwise. Prison or worse may have been the penalty for an innocent session and I am not prepared to take that risk. So sadly for all those needy subs in the UAE - I shall not be offerring My skilled services in that region.

As I write this entry I have an adult baby film that I made yesterday uploading onto My computer ready to be edited. I shall load it onto My clips4sale store when it is ready and I am hoping to start an adult baby members area once I have enough films. It is a common but misunderstood fetish. Some people mistakenly believe that it is crossing the line and getting too close to paedophilia. Having many years of experience of adult babies - I can honestly say that although there is often an erotic aspect to the age play, it is simply innocent role play.

A desire to leave behind the adult cares and responsibilities of the world for a couple of hours. I certainly would never entertain anything that I considered sick, immoral or harmful to children or animals. I occassionally get requests to squish living creatures such as gold fish, slugs or snails and I do find these requests and that fetish offensive as I respect ALL life no matter how small.

I require a slave with a good knowledge of html for a couple of hours work. So if you are local to Me or able to do the work from home and email it to Me - please get in touch.

If any of My diary readers are experienced book writers or publishers - please also get in touch as I have been toying with the idea of writing a book. I say toying - because on the one hand I would love to have a best-selling book but on the other hand I do enjoy being a very private person. No doubt, My story shall be written one day - as I have lived a very unusual and unconventional life - which I guess has helped make Me who I am... a rather unconventional Lady!

Until we meet again

Mistress Prima XX

24th January 2007

Happy New Year to all of My diary readers. I know that it's a bit late in coming but I have just been so busy. I have finally got around to answering some of My emails this evening.. hundreds had piled up and as I answer all of them personally.. it takes some time.

A big thank you to all the wellwishers that sent Me Christmas, birthday and New Year greetings.

My big slut TV slave karen had her big night out at The Wayout Club with Myself, another slave and My friend Mistress Bully on Saturday 13th January. I had such fun setting her tasks all night and I have to say that she was tremendous and completed them all with zeal. Her first task was to dance sexily on the posium and she was up there in an instant.. flashing her sexy legs off to all. Her second task was to get a guy to buy her a drink.. let's just say that not only did she have a free drink in minutes, she was also offerred gum and cigarettes and she had an invitation to his hotel room too!!

I had intended to set her tasks in My diary but I hadn't got around to updating it in time. So instead they were given in person on the night, one after the other. The final one being to go and get me a cigarette in 10 minutes... or I would leave her to make her own way back to my place at 3.00am from the city. She excelled herself and shocked even Me when she was back with one within 3 minutes and told Me that she'd even had a Woman flash her breasts at her in that time!

When we all finally got back to My place I put big slut karen in bondage for the night and went off for a very long sleep. Mistress Bully was far too soft and released her.. long before I would have!

Here's an extract from slut karens email to Me the following day:

Mistress

Thank You for the most enjoyable and memorable session i have ever had. You were excellent at setting me tasks that brought me out of myself and led to a wonderful evening. It followed my third real venture out as karen in the day and i think karen has now truly come of age. i am rather glad i did get You that second cigarette as i am still not sure whether You would have abandoned me penniless as karen in the City at 3 o'clock in the morning.

The bondage night was really good and just right. The bondage, though secure, allowed me to get some sleep. Mistress Bully seemed rather concerned that i had been left until 1030 in bondage. i was perfectly fine and half expected the three of you to come down and have drinks and breakfast with me still tied up. i love the feeling of being secured and listening to see if Mistress is up and will come down to see me or free me. i did hear the visits to the loo and the idea that You would simply go back to sleep and ignore me was exciting.

Being tied up and seeing the day break brought back memories of the OWK. i would definitely like to have another overnight stay - maybe with more sensory deprivation so i do not know what time it is or whether anyone is up.

My thanks to You, Mistress Bully and Mark.

i will of course continue to carry out the daily tasks - though i confess i did forget to recite last night - and abstain from relief untill You give me permission. However, in view of the hormones i would like to test to see if i still can wank myself and cum at some point. It may be that i have managed to create a new form of chastity!!

With my best wishes to You,

Your big slut karen

I hope that you are having as much fun... and if not.. maybe it's time to book a session with Me.

Mistress Prima X

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